There is no "end goal". Doing is the reward.

Maaaan.. I caught myself tonight looking through my own socials in a damn rut!!!! Judging myself and nit picking every video and then looking at other professional dancers, telling myself I am so far from where I want to be as a movement artist. Its been years of hard work- blood sweat and tears and theres still so much more to do so much more to learn. I was even questioning why do I do this at all? Is it worth it? Comparison really is the thief of all joy. But you know what isn't?! Being able to do something you enjoy everyday. I am obsessed with aerial arts through and through. Yoga too.

Movement is the one thing in this world that makes sense to me. Something that keeps me so curious all the freaking time & truly sets my soul on fire. So then why compare? Why nit pick? it doesn't even really matter that much. In hindsight I've accomplished so much with this lifestyle. Community, classes, income, entertainment, style, empowerment ect. the list goes on. So why am I over here judging my own self? Why is it so easy to be hard on ourselves instead of celebrating all the little wins that turn big because of the work we put in behind the scenes. This says way more than any flexy pose will.

To someone else you're incredible. Those who take my classes must believe I am doing something right if they are willing to put their trust in me to also guide them through what I know based on what I've taught/learned myself? But sometimes Im like omg what do I even know if I hate everything I do?! ugh there I go again with the back and forth. I enjoy what I do- which is learn. Regardless if its good or bad. It's all part of the process. All good things take time. Obsession is rare.

So then I thought... Get over yourself. The sense of euphoria I get just doing the things I love regardless of the outcome is my reward. Not a specific pose or level of flexibility. If I was where I wanted to be already what fun would that be? Where would I have to go? So there is no "end goal". Doing is the reward. Aint shit to judge about that. I can admire and aspire and keep on freaaaaaking doing the damn thang!!!!!!!!!!! lol

Love <3